pretty basic…he had online affair and i cant feel any pain of any kind emotionally…. back story here, after years of therapy and religious counsellings i still cant feel pain. I am an artistic person and very physical in the way i love and express myself… i am 26 years old and after having a father that beat the hello dolly out of me and the ex bf’s and the ex husband that did all the same…i feel that symbolically i need to perform a ritual. the therapists said that doing something for myself would be the best way to help…i was thinking of getting a tattoo of a cross on my shoulder blade…symbolically to me it represents that christ has had my back and, that i lived through all of this 26 years and im ok. im not dead and have 3 great kids to show. and with getting this done i would feel the physical pain and have a “release”. also,symbolically speaking, to me it would be i reminder of not my pain but, my strength of having made it through it all with him having my back…is this an ok way to deal or should i do the new haircut and blowing money on things that doesn’t last?

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